(I was trying way too hard when I wrote this thread, but it might factor into some writing about effort and surrender.)
selflathing
what is going on?
i feel pain
it hurts
i don’t want to
i must relieve the pain by my effort
the belief is: effort relieves suffering
why effort? why not acceptance? or hugs?
because effort means i am in control
why do you need to be in control?
to make the suffering go away!
what might loopy say?
https://t.co/3vCUAYRMiI
ease relieves suffering
turn sideways, be the sheet of paper
effort causes suffering
the buddhist take. effort is grasping
effort relieves ___?
what is effort for?
i am trying to find a new home for my effort
i am quite attached to it
it is something i love
i love my effort. it is earnest, it wants things, it wants me to be happy
it imagines a better life for me and tries to lead me there
my effort is trying to find a place where it can relax
hang out on a sun lounger, enjoy being warm, take a nap
what if, effort, your work is done?
we have a home. a job. financial stability. a cat. friends. comfort available, should we choose
what more can we ask for?
have we arrived?
thank you, effort. i love you.
for so long you tried. and, actually, i think you succeeded.
because look! look around!
rest, my love. this peace is ours
coda: what more can we ask for?
love
and yet
i was here all along